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1.9.07

Last night after work, I made dinner for Dave and my parents, and then we watched "Wedding Crashers." It was really funny. It had felt like a really long day for all of us, so it was nice to just sit and watch something funny and mindless.

Today I am at work. I'm wearing the sweater Dave's mom got me for Christmas, which is quite cool.

Last night I made more lj avatars for this account. I didn't know I could have up to 46! I somehow missed the memo on that!! If I get a chance, I will make some more.

I have two more weeks after the end of this week before I go back to school. I do sorta miss it because it does make me think and gives me something to do besides designing webpages and delivering dinners to people at the restaurant. The commute isn't always fun though and it is a lot of work, but I will be so proud of myself when I have finished the degree! That also means that I will have to look for a "real" job which doesn't necessarily sound fun though!! It's sad to think that I am getting older, and that an era of my life is ending - the era where I was young, didn't have a ton of responsibilities, saw many of my friends alllllll the time instead of now having to make distinct plans to see people, and I was able to dance and do shows and not worry about it interfering with the other things that were happening in my life. Now I have to plan around classes and work and it's just a scary thought! However, I am thrilled with what is happening in my life - Dave means the world to me, I bought my OWN house which is just crazy, and I do enjoy working and being given projects that I alone get to work on and solve. It lets me be creative, and I have my own responsibilities!! But then I look back to the summers where I lived at my shore house and did professional theater. I hung out on the beach in between rehearsals and shows with my friends who were also at the theater, and friends from home came for long weekends/weeks to visit. I spent my entire day in leotards and tights, running around in pointe shoes and in long rehearsals. I was 16/17, and it was my first time away from home for long periods of time, but again, I knew I had to be responsible and show up for rehearsal on time, and actually had to PERFORM WELL in both rehearsal and the shows. Obviously there are people who want to perform professionally as like, their job, but I don't even want to do that. I just miss being young, younger than I am now at least, and the experiences that went along with it.

But then I think about what the future holds for me, and I can't wait for it - I'm sure at some point in my existence I will get married, and have a job in the arts - related to either fashion, musuems or costume collections. I'm just now at the 'turning point' where my old existence is ending, and the new one is just starting to appear. And it just freaks me out. But, I'm extremely happy and there isn't anything that I would be doing differently. I just want things to slow down.

Random post. And when I started writing this, I didn't think I had a lot to say...

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_startingover
Jan. 9th, 2007 08:14 pm (UTC)
CONGRATS! owning a house and getting through degrees are huge steps and seems like you've done a lot for yourself. you have a lot to be proud of =)

wow it's crazy, i'm kind of on the other end of the spectrum. i just started college and it's weird to think that in a few years i will most likely be along a similiar path
pookielocks
Jan. 10th, 2007 04:41 pm (UTC)
growing and changing is scary, but positive. i'm past the point that you're coming into now, and am going on to a new phase of my life as well. i'm still not married. i no longer own a house. but, i am finally at almost 30 beginning to accept myself and like myself a bit. it's scary, but good at the same time!
misstsapinay
Jan. 11th, 2007 12:39 am (UTC)
Isn't it funny how it seems after high school, time seems to fly by so fast? It's crazy =/ I miss my mindless years where my only responsibility was going to school and hanging out with friends too. But, on the bright side there's so many good things to look forward to. Don't worry, it's not THAT bad =p
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