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Again, there isn't a whole lot to talk about. Life is going well. I'm at work now and getting a lot accomplished.

It's so weird to think that I will be graduating in May. With two MA degrees! I remember how excited I was when I got the email stating that I had been accepted to the FIT program. I was still an undergraduate, and I ended up deferring starting the FIT program for a year. And now, I'm almost finished. It's crazy to think about it - I'll be 25 in September. This summer is going to be pretty major for life-making decisions. I'll really have to work on the job push, or stay where I am. There are major positives for each, and I just don't know at this moment how it's all going to end up. I know I'll be fine no matter what happens, but I'm still curious to know NOW what will happen.

I'm starting to really look for other job possibilities. My main issue is insurance. I currently am getting insurance, but it's fairly expensive each month. My parents adore me (ha) and they cover it cause they know I'm still in school and working to the best of my ability, but I know as soon as I graduate it will become my responsibility (as it should) since I will then have the capability of having a full time job that has benefits. Unfortunately, I just need to find one of these jobs. All the jobs that interest me unfortunately are part time - at least at this exact moment in time. And my freelance business is going well, but I don't want to only rely on that. That is a wonderful extra source of income that really allows me to save money and whatnot, but I would also love to have an additional income cause there are so many major things in life that will be occurring in the next few years. So, I want to make and save as much money as humanly possible for all of that. And that means working a lot!

So yeh. Medical insurance. Ugh. I'm just getting to the point where I'm super excited that I won't have to pay ANY TUITION next semester. And that makes me jump for joy! (All that money that I sent to both FIT and MSU for the past 3 years can go into savings! What a novel concept!) I'm glad I have no education loans - my mom mentioned to me yesterday that some education loan companies are going out of business. What will then happen to the generation that is about to go to college and can't afford it? Um - does that mean more people will not have college educations? I think it means that state schools will thrive since tuition is a lot lower...scary thought though. I'm pretty sure I won't be getting a PhD. At least not for a while. And, if I do decide to get one, presumably I will be working full time at that point. And if Dave wants an MA at some point, and he might, we'd get to pay for that. But at least the bulk of our education, or at least the education we have up to this point is paid off and not something we have to think about. Good call.

So yeh. I'm a little unsettled about life. I'm thrilled with everything, but I just wish I could look into the future and see how it will all pan out. Kinda frustrating. At least my family and Dave are there to calm me and assure me that all will be ok. All of my friends are at varying points in their lives too - all are doing well - some have houses, some rent and live with bfs, some are engaged, some have master's degrees, some have full time jobs - but its all smatterings of those 'goals' and I'm happy with the way my life is too, so at least I don't feel left out or jealous. But no one I know has all of that - (except my sister? hahaha) I was talking to Alyson's sister in law a few weekends ago, and she has a townhouse that she owns with her husband, and really wants to sell to buy a house (with more than one bedroom!). She has a daughter, and when she and my mom and Alyson and I were talking, we came to the conclusion that no one can have it ALL at first - you have to pick and choose what is most important, which obviously varies from person to person. For me, I really wanted a master's degree. Marriage and kids are not immediate priorities. But no one that any of us knew in Northern New Jersey has a full time job, owns a house, a master's degree, and children. They'll just have 2 or 3 from that list. I guess I just want it all. NOW. hahah Sorta like Veruca Salt in Charlie and the Chocolate Factory...kidding...

So I'm 24. I feel old. I guess I kinda thought when I was younger that by 25 I'd be totally settled in every way. And who knows - I have until September 12th, maybe I will be settled by 25 in every way. I doubt it though. I just am shocked at how fast time goes by and I wish there were an extra 2 years in your 20s to give everyone more time to do all the things they want to do! Ugh. I think too much too...I should just stop whining and enjoy my life, cause honestly, it's great...



Dave sent me a really funny email the other day - he took a screen shot of our first exchange on MySpace. We had run into one another at a bar a few months prior, and he mentioned that when he wrote me. And I wrote him back with my phone number and what was happening in my life. The date was February 12, 2005, and it's funny cause our first date was on the 14th. He makes me smile. I'm hoping that *maybe* we can get away this weekend? I also have a bridal shower to attend for his side, so that might not be an option, but we'll see. Lots of weddings coming - and basically all of them on his side.

This was kind of a random rant post even though I'm not really ranting against anything in particular - just the fact that time goes by too quickly!

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sandybutterfly
Apr. 15th, 2008 08:55 pm (UTC)
I have been pondering lately about life....I wish I knew what is in store for me....hopefully all good things. I am happy too :-)
I am glad you are happy, but you are not older...I am older....25 turning 26 in JUNE! bahhhh!!!
jamielynne1983
Apr. 16th, 2008 02:14 am (UTC)
Hey there Alexa! I am happy that you still have your LJ. I've always enjoyed reading your blogs. I just started mine again, do you mind if I add you?
nyankolove
Apr. 16th, 2008 02:46 am (UTC)
When I got laid off from my last job I went on COBRA and was paying like $250 a month for my health insurance, but I went to ehealthinsurance.com and got on the SAME plan, as an individual, for $125 a month. I don't know what your means are or anything, but that amount MAY (or may not) be more reasonable than what you're paying now. It's worth a look if you really need your own insurance.

Also, I just wanted to say that life is about the journey. Try to relax a little and take things one day at a time ;)
krista_nicole
Apr. 16th, 2008 03:53 pm (UTC)
you're totally right about the priorities and some people picking different things first. i get VERY stressed out over trying to work towards everything at once instead of focusing on one thing at a time and realizing my progress/accomplishments. i think what you've been able to do is awesome - having two masters degrees before age 25 is incredible! i would bet that someday, you will definitely have it all!
misstsapinay
Apr. 16th, 2008 06:57 pm (UTC)
It just takes time. Be patient. I'm 25 and still figuring things out. Life unfolds each day at a time. It's like they say, "Life is a journey, not a destination. So stop running." :) I still want to buy property, get married, have kids, etc. but I know that all takes time and lots of money. You're on the right path to success!

As for insurance...that's definately important. Since I started my new job, I just got my medical insurance. It's a PPO...Totally confusing, though I'm getting used to it.
lilsurferbaby
Apr. 23rd, 2008 09:15 am (UTC)
Life
Yea life goes by way toooo quickly these days. Shoot we are already well into April.

xoxoxo,
Taryn
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